Saturday, January 21, 2012

And it continues...

My friends have asked me to blog again. So under EXTREME duress I will blog. My mother always told me if I had nothing nice to say, say nothing at all. Apparently that does not hold true to writing so fasten your seat belts, this is going to be a bumpy ride.

2011 was not the greatest of years. Two years without working, lost my sweet cat Jillian, I mean she passed away not like left on her own. My unemployment was running out. Lost my insurance and most of my mind to stress. My gym changed ownership and raised the rates and lost many of the staff I loved. My mom had a tough year with her treatment and well as you know troubles with my beloved neighbor from hell has not made this year much better. Court three times for parking tickets. Fear of losing my home and being on the streets made my body shut down in ways I could not have imagined. I began drinking to take the stress away and I do mean a lot. I also, though eating better (no meat) found ways to gain weight anyways. I have always said my weight has a homing device. It knows where I live. When the new year rolled around I have never been so happy to see 2012. Though it is a tough begining I am sensing there is a change a brewing and as long as it is not beer I think it will be for the best.

I have so many intentions for this year, first being a job and saving my apartment until I can move to a place where I do not have to tread lightly. You who know what is happening understand what I mean by that. Another intention is to do something every month that is out of my comfort zone. This can be online dating, comedy, running naked through the streets of L.A....oh shit did I write that down....well don't worry folks unless I need a place to stay (like jail) that WILL NOT HAPPEN, please breathe easy.

For the moment I am scared. My unemployment ran out, I am not eligible for any state services except food stamps. GR will not work because I have an apartment and I can not get the free loans because I do not have a job. I now know the meaning of a catch 22. Soooooooo, even though I am in dire straights right now I am not giving up hope! My friends have been awesome. They have kept my spirits high, when the other spirits do not work. Their love and support has kept my feet on the ground and not in the air with me hanging from a light fixture.  Do not worry folks I have no hanging light fixture in my apartment.

This blog will be my new journey this year, plus hoping a way to vent without biting heads off of chickens or drinking myself under the table. I am looking forward to taking this journey with you...yes you, I see you shaking your, my friends, old and new, who when I do my stand up again I will NOT tell you since many of you will be in it!  Thank you all especially John and my two A's for keeping me from going completely insane, yes I know I have been partially insane but I have been that way for years!

So this is the end of my first blog of 2012. May it be a journey we all have some fun with, shed some tears and have a laugh or hundred along the way!  Thank you for joining me and I will work for food and money and at this time a house cleaner!!!! Oh and comments are welcome, just remember I am fragile like bull!  :)


  1. So glad to see you back blogging, Judith. Your humor,attitude, and resilience shine through even with all that has gone on. I'm looking for a great 2012 for you! xoA

  2. Fear can be a great motivator, or a paralyzer, and I know you're working your way through the understandable trepidations of being in this vulnerable spot. Good for you... Keep going, and together we WILL have a better year!